i hate stupid people..

THIS BITCH NEEDS TO BE TAUGHT A LESSON
..


this woman.. is... shes... i cant put into words the anger i feel for this woman at this moment.. but more then that.. i feel sorry for her.. that instead of just living her life.. she has to hate.. EVERYONE.. its sad when your life is so meaning less that.. thats all you have.. shes sad.. and i feel sorry for her..

to you.. this means nothing..

two things..



my fish died.. butters.. it was really said.. i cried.. i know im a girl..




and i need some feedback.. i wanna go to bartending school.. what do you think..

my new pics..

me rockin out.. or trying to bite my ear.. only Ian knows..

my new shirt i made..
no its not for a band named shores..
i dont even know if one exsists..

because i was bored..

my new friends.. eric and ashlea


my scooter.. being cute..

reminds me the world isnt so bad.. the sun is shining.

the street.. yea i was bored..

nite guys..

for a moment. i didnt need you

I don't care anymore if I let you down
I believe that I need to be free
I'm so used to my life with you around
I don't know anymore the real me



And I thought that I found myself today
And I thought that I had control
All the change in my life just fell away
For a moment I didn't need you



All these tears that I've cried you must be tired of
Taking care of me but
It's what you do best and I'm a liar cuz
Really it's what I need



And I thought that I found myself today
And I thought that I had control
All the change in my life just fell away
For a moment I didn't need you

Someone like you
Someone like me
Maybe it's change
That sets you free
Free



And I thought that I found myself today
And I thought that I had control
All the change in my life just fell away
For a moment I didn't need you



And I thought that I found myself today
And I thought that I had control
All the change in my life just fell away
For a moment I didn't need you

maybe it will be for closure..

when its over that part of my life will be too..
where is a friend when i need one..

That's great, it starts with an earthquake, birds and snakes, an aeroplane -
Lenny Bruce is not afraid. Eye of a hurricane, listen to yourself churn -
world serves its own needs, don't misserve your own needs. Feed it up a knock,
speed, grunt no, strength no. Ladder structure clatter with fear of height,
down height. Wire in a fire, represent the seven games in a government for
hire and a combat site. Left her, wasn't coming in a hurry with the furies
breathing down your neck. Team by team reporters baffled, trump, tethered
crop. Look at that low plane! Fine then. Uh oh, overflow, population,
common group, but it'll do. Save yourself, serve yourself. World serves its
own needs, listen to your heart bleed. Tell me with the rapture and the
reverent in the right - right. You vitriolic, patriotic, slam, fight, bright
light, feeling pretty psyched.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.

Six o'clock - TV hour. Don't get caught in foreign tower. Slash and burn,
return, listen to yourself churn. Lock him in uniform and book burning,
blood letting. Every motive escalate. Automotive incinerate. Light a candle,
light a motive. Step down, step down. Watch a heel crush, crush. Uh oh,
this means no fear - cavalier. Renegade and steer clear! A tournament,
a tournament, a tournament of lies. Offer me solutions, offer me alternatives
and I decline.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.

The other night I tripped a nice continental drift divide. Mount St. Edelite.
Leonard Bernstein. Leonid Breshnev, Lenny Bruce and Lester Bangs.
Birthday party, cheesecake, jelly bean, boom! You symbiotic, patriotic,
slam, but neck, right? Right.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine...fine...

(It's time I had some time alone)

this is for ru.. tell me what you think babe..

yea this week sucks.. someone save me..

i know why she died..

I know it could take forever and everything could change today.. but i'm on my way to change me for you and play the fool. I'm on my way.. why live my dreams when i can live yours.. cause isnt that what you want me to do? It hurts me to do it and it makes you feel better. my world revolves around the things you tell me, the air you breathe, the places you go and the things you do. tell me my dreams.. tell me my plans.. I live more then vicariously though you.. i'm weak sad a jaded girl. lost forever in your eyes. forever your fool. cause thats how you want me..

you try to make it right..

Do You Realize - that you have the most beautiful face
Do You Realize - we're floating in space -
Do You Realize - that happiness makes you cry
Do You Realize - that everyone you know someday will die

And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know
You realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

Do You Realize - Oh - Oh - Oh
Do You Realize - that everyone you know
Someday will die -

And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know
You realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

Do You Realize - that you have the most beautiful face
Do You Realize

its been.. a while..

Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater

You don’t need to bother;
I don’t need to be
I’ll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won’t let go ’til it bleeds

Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason;
My flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

You don’t need to bother;
I don’t need to be
I’ll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won’t let go ’til it bleeds

(solo: corey)

Wish I’d died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten
With it’s memories
Diaries left
With cryptic entries

And you don’t need to bother;
I don’t need to be
I’ll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won’t let go ’til it bleeds

You don’t need to bother;
I don’t need to be
I’ll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I’ll never live down my deceit

this will all fall down..

and it did..

oh well no pain no gain..

i dont wanna come back down from this cloud..

a broken heart chained back together
used actual chain
and a rusty blade
for look and effect
i dunno
i like it
made it for a friend
i dunno if i want
to give it up

theres no one left to blame it on..

It seems like every day’s the same
and I’m left to discover on my own
It seems like everything is gray
and there’s no color to behold
They say it’s over and I’m fine again, yeah
Try to stay sober feels like I’m dying here

And I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell I am prepared now,
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well

I feel the dream in me expire
and there’s no one left to blame it on
I hear you label me a liar
‘cause I can’t seem to get this through
You say it’s over, I can sigh again, yeah
Why try to stay sober when I’m dying here

And I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell
I am prepared now,
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late; just as well

And I’m not scared now.
I must assure you,
you’re never gonna get away
And I’m not scared now.
And I’m not scared now. No…

I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell
I am prepared now
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well
I am prepared now,
seems everything’s gonna be fine for me
For me; for myself.
For me, for me, for myself
For me, for me, for myself

so.. i meet this guy..

hes awesome.. of course hes taken.. of course.. we have hung out and i like him.. alot.. and this sounds so high school but he likes me too.. alot.. but has a 2 year relationship under his belt.. and do you walk away from love for like? i mean you never know how things will work out.. but i dunno.. i just dont know.. why cant life be simple..

so what do you think babes.. honestly..

my inks my mark on society.. read between these lines and you'll understand that my ink is with me till the end.. im inked till the end..

"where is your boy tonite.. i hope he is a gentleman.. maybe he wont find out what i know..."


well i am offically front of house manager.. just a snazzier name for what i already do.. go eryn.. yea! someone should come visit me at work.. but no one ever does.. well except my mom.. and jen.. score.. im gonna make them both come.. or at least recommend it strongly..


ok im gone.. i need to get ready to go to work.. anyone seen my shoes.. yea me either..


"you were the last good thing about this part of town.. "

you know theres always more then one way to say exactly what you mean to say..

i woke up today with the thoughts thats today will be good.. the sun is shining.. blah blah blah.. i ended it with. finding myself driving too fast.. not really caring in which direction i was going.. listenin to crappy music.. and wishing the day had never started.. i found myself picking up the phone to call people i know would never answer.. as if to rub salt in my own wounds... and honestly im so sick of people reminding me that the 22nd is right around the corner.. i know. i own a calendar.. believe me i can remember it myself..

im so sick.. of i dunno.. i guess feeling.. why do we do this..

how can one day be so good then the next.. suck so bad? why is everyone tryin their hardest to stop me? from being happy? from forgetting? i just dont want to feel anymore..

the difference between a dog person and a cat person..

a cat person.. picky about who they are give their attention to..
a dog person.. friendly and loyal..
a cat person.. holds back until they are ready
a dog person.. outgoing and loud..
a cat person.. only comes around when they need something or wants something
a dog person.. give attention because it wants attention..
a cat person.. can't tell what they are thinking/feeling
a dog person.. very upfront with emotions..

look at it really.. a cat hides under a chair a dog lays in your lap.. the more a cat grows up the less it wants anything to do with you..
a dog sorta stays with the person who has taken care of it.. the older it gets the more attention it craves..

i can look at all the guys ive hung out with.. dated.. been in relationships with.. and label them one or another (i know its not nice to label) but i can see which ones are cat persons and which are dog.. like i see teddy as a cat person. it was convient.. i was there when he needed something.. i see ryan as a dog person.. and of what me and chris have talked about and this and that.. i see him as a dog person as well ..
My mom says im a dog person.. what do you think?
i think dog people attract cat people.. people who are needy but only want it when its good for them.. like when their food bowl is empty or they need someone to pet them.. lol.. but they are attracted to dog people for that stability of being strong and outgoing.. they need that piece of that person because they arent.. they dont have that..
i see my mother as a dog person.. and some of my best friends as dog people.. but the rest of them as cat people..or a good portion.. people who call me out of convience when everyone else is busy..or their plans fell through or they are mad at their bf/gf and their food bowls are needed to be filled..
my best friend is a dog person.. well thats the way i see it. very dominate and outgoing.. very upfront about he feels about situations. and can figure me out just by the look in my eye the tone in my voice.. and the way have that OCD thing i do when i get quiet.. always messing with stuff.. lol "your completely feeling me up right now and you dont even notice"
i find it kind of crazy how much sense this makes to me.. how each person can be classified.. by an 4 legged animal covered in hair.. im not saying being a cat person is a bad thing.. it works for hundreds of thousands of millions of people. and has worked for years and years.. so it cant possibly be a horrible thing. im not saying its worderful but hey what works for them..
"dogs and cats have one thing in common.. they arent people.. they might of found a great way to mate.. but its not that easy for us.. "
well..

i was bored at work..

this is what happens
when eryn gets bored at work..



and on the way back from the hills..

it's what we do..
xoxoxoxoxoxox
love n shit
eryn

honey..

you will never possibly understand how close i hold our friendship.. your one of my best friends. and i love you more then anything.. i wish you could see yourself the way i see you.. maybe you would understand.. your not a typical anything.. person.. human being.. anything.. you are a gift.. that i am lucky enough to have.. and every day i thank hotornot.com, the internet gods.. and starbucks. for bringing us together and bringing you into my life.. i have been truely lucky. and i guess all i can say is i love you babe.. i really do.. and i thank you for understanding me.. and being there for me. when no one else would.. you are.. the best. thats all i can say.. the 3 date rule my ass. :) i love you


xoxoxoxoxxoxox
love n shit
eryn

a little odd

http://www.comcast.net/news/strange/index.jsp?cat=STRANGE&fn=/2006/04/05/361780.html&cvqh=weird_kitten

i dont blame you for being you.. but you cant blame me for hating it..

well i came back early.. couldnt take the country living anymore.. there were things bugging me .. but its ok.. i had lunch with teddy today.. things went well.. i sat across the table from him.. and looked at him.. and all i could think was..i dont love him.. i love him as a friend.. but thats it.. it was all gone.. i dunno..i have one more thing i have to deal with .. and i dunno how to do it.. because i think hes emotionally unstable..
my god.. the people we attract darling.. well not all of them.. just some.. DAMNIT.. nite

we had fun today..

me jen and sarah went thrift store shopping in riverdale and college park.. they had some of the best tshirt.. got 2 books from 1905.. and two pins.. and i got home and i got some mail.. a mint tingle condom from trojan.. its new.. GO FREE SAMPLES!! on the back it says.. "If you don't need this sample, pas it on to a friend who does." i think its funny.. i took some pics.. there was this one thrift store that had a wall full of underwear..


i dont know about you but i would never want to wear 2nd hand undies.. and i would definitly never put them on my kid..

This is Sarah..

Shes a little punker


im out.

i cant forgive.. cant forget cant give in.. what went wrong cause you said this was right. you fucked up my life

MY GOD why in the hell is he always right.. yes i do get upset i know i do.. but i do believe im over it.. i honestly truely believe it.. its not something im telling myself so i feel ok.. i think it just gets to me.. that he has to tell me these things.. that he enjoys fuckin with my head.. that what he did wasnt enough that he has to make it worse ever chance he gets.. and that i let him.. so honestly its my own fault. i have no one to blame but myself.. im just a sad stupid girl.. and i need to get over myself.. yea im a loser im starting to realize that more now hahaha.. but anyways.. anyone want to take out a stalker.. i can usually deal with the crazy ones.. but this one.. i cant seem to do it.. anyways.. love you guys.. more then you'll ever know..
eryn

yea its new..

i fucked with my myspace

New Name
New Look
Same Great Taste

hahahaha
i'm heading out of town wednesday
going south to the country
visit some friends
and some "family"
that i left behind
I really need a date for a wedding this month
cause this chick..
is tryin to match me up
with some scary guy
i need a hero
on a white horse..
SOMEONE!!
shit i need to go get ready
for Hallie Bell's Birthday Party
Gotta love the 3 year olds
shes sweet though
i'll take vids
and post them on my myspace

Out like a fat kid in dodgeball

xoxoxoxox
love n shit
eryn

so funny

i stole this