come on in now, wipe your feet on my dreams...

Don't bother saying you're sorry / Why don't you come in
Smoke all my cigarettes again / Every time I get no further
How long has it been? / Come on in now, wipe your feet on my dreams
You take up my time / Like some cheap magazine
When I could have been learning something
Oh well, you know what I mean, oh / I've done this before
And I will do it again / Come on and kill me baby
While you smile like a friend / Oh and I'll come running
Just to do it again / You are the last drink I never should have drunk
You are the body hidden in the trunk / You are the habit I can't seem to kick
You are my secrets on the front page every week
You are the car I never should have bought
You are the dream I never should have caught
You are the cut that makes me hide my face
You are the party that makes me feel my age
Like a car crash I can see but I just can't avoid
Like a plane I've been told I never should board
Like a film that's so bad but I've got to stay till the end
Let me tell you now: it's lucky for you that we're friends

<3 love is a battle field <3

We are young, heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demands


Love is a battlefield
We are strong, no one can tell us were wrong
Searchin our hearts for so long, both of us knowing
Love is a battlefield


Youre beggin me to go, youre makin me stay
Why do you hurt me so bad?
It would help me to know

Do I stand in your way, or am I the best thing youve had?
Believe me, believe me, I cant tell you why

But Im trapped by your love, and Im chained to your side

We are young, heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demands
Love is a battlefield


We are strong, no one can tell us were wrong
Searchin our hearts for so long, both of us knowing
Love is a battlefield

Were losing control
Will you turn me away or touch me deep inside?
And before this gets old, will it still feel the same?
Theres no way this will die

But if we get much closer, I could lose control
And if your heart surrenders, youll need me to hold

We are young, heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demands
Love is a battlefield

We are strong, no one can tell us were wrong
Searchin our hearts for so long, both of us knowing
Love is a battlefield

We are young, heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demands
Love is a battlefield

We are strong, no one can tell us were wrong
Searchin our hearts for so long, both of us knowing
Love is a battlefield

sometimes i just wanna quit and be normal for a bit..

wanna see pictures of me and the random shit i do???? for no reason at all.. hmmm..

go to www.photobucket.com

and search for

jadedgirl769

it gets updated regulary..

xoxoxoxxoxox
love and shit
eryn

what i found in my sent box..

my friend asked for my myspace password.. and i gave it to her .. not thinking anything of it.. today im scrolling through my sent box and i find a message sent to my ex fiance. from my friend angie who i havent seen in years and talk to randomly if we are both conviently online.. this is what it said..

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thanks for all the picture comments but i didnt rip my heart.. it was handed to me that way..


ok that was a bitchy move. but this isnt eryn i just knew she would never say it. so i did it for her.

i know its not my business. but i think eryn is an extrodinary person. after everything she has nothing but good things to say about you. she defends you to her friends and wont let anyone put you down. you are very VERY lucky to have a friend like her. i hope you appreciate her as much as we all do. but honestly thanks for giving her back.

angie.

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it was a bitch move but thanks ang.. i love you..

if ever you loved me you'd say

i met this guy named james hes pretty cool.. but i think someone is jealous.. and its lame.. so now i have everyone else coming to me with their fucked up bullshit drama.. because they dont want me to have time to hang out with people..

here's where i stand..

Here in the Dark
I stand before you
This is my chance to show you my heart
This is the start, this is the start.

I have so much to say and I'm hoping
That your Arms are open
Don't turn away, don't you need me?
But you have to hear me.

Here's where I stand,
Here's who I am
Love me, but don't tell me who I have to be
Here's who I am,
I'm what you see.

You said I had to change and I was trying
But my heart was lying
I'm not a child any longer
I am stroooongerrrr

Here's where I stand,
Here's who I am
Help me, to move on but please don't tell me how
I'm on my way, I'm moving out


In this life we've come so far
but we're only who we are (who we are)
Courage of love (Courage of Love)
will show us the way (Show us the way)
Unlock the power
To stand up and saaaaa--aaaaayyy (Stand upppp)

(Up and say!)
Herreeeee's where I stand
Here's who I am
(Stand Up) I'll be counting, counting on you
If you're with me, we'll make it through

Here's where I stand,
Here's who I am
Love me, Love me, Love me, and we'll make it through

Here's where I stand,
Baby, Baby, Baby, I'm counting on you

Here's where I stand
Love me, Love me, Love me, and we'll make it through

I'm counting, Oooh,
I'm counting,
I'm counting, I'm counting onn....
Yooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

i've become that girl..

the one that waits by the phone for you to call secretly knowing your not going to .. hoping i can prove myself wrong.. but i dont..




how fast you must of slipped away
to be gone without a trace..
too close for comfort
where did the mild child go..

where are you now..

that i need you..

sry guys my thoughts arent working the way i want them to.. and i cant type how i feel so im keeping it to myself i have tomorrow off.. and no one to talk to.. cant get any better.

first a story then the reason..

two chinese monks were walkin through the woods one far older and wiser then the other.. each had taken a vows when they became monks and one was to never touch a woman.. they are walkin for days. and it had rained.. the younger of the two aproach a deep river that had rose with the amount of rainfall.. a woman is standing next to the river and asks the monk if he would carry her across because she couldnt do it on her own.. the monk quickly tells the woman that he could not do that.. he had vowed to never touch a female.. and makes his way across the river leaving the woman standing there.. the older wiser monk walks up to the river.. picks up the woman and carries her across the river and sits her down on the other side and continues on his way.. the younger monk could no believe his eyes.. he dared not to question this monk but the thought plagued his mind.. the man who was so much older.. so much wiser then he had just broke a sacred vow and carried this woman he touched this woman.. and after miles and miles of walking and much time had passed the younger monk could not take it anymore he stopped the older monk and asked "how could you do that. how could you break your vow and carry that woman across the river" he older monk said without hesitation "i carried her over the river and sat her down. you are still carrying her"

i heard this story sitting in a taco mac in alpheretta.. and my friend tells me this story with such feeling.. and so much enthusiam that to some people it would seem overbearing.. but to me its not.. and as we sat there.. i began to think about all the things i still carry with me.. and one just plagues me. my dad.. my dad has not spoke to me.. in months.. MONTHS.. he will even go as far as going to my mother ask her something and in turn she will turn around and ask me. this is somethign i carry with me.. and cannot sit down.. because this is my father.. the man who is somewhat responsible for my life. and i cannot get him to say two words to me..
i will end it here without exactly finishing it.. because i dont know how to end it. i dont know what could be so horrible about me that he would rather not speak to me. it worries me.. greatly that i might go through my whole life not knowing what to do about this situation till one day it is too late..
we never know what tomorrow brings.. or what the next 15 minutes brings.. what if its already too late..

manny gets shot..

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so.. that was easy.. when do we get the gun?

So what do you guys think..
a heartbreaker?

Our second trip to the awful waffle today

THEN IT WAS OFF TO WALLY WORLD
OK!! this is sooo not even funny

I think manny needs some alone time

Excuse me how much are those per pound?

And she said she wasnt hungry..

Let's start a revolution..
let him out..
GO SPEEDY GO!!

BOYS!!

WILL BE BOYS!!

Got something to prove there girly?

"let's take pictures of you"

I need a hero..
I'm holding out for a hero
till the end of the night

Some people are so fuckin gross..

ASHES!! you dont know where thats been..

"can you get it for me. im really short"
Charles got creamed..

So funny..

All he wants is confrontation..

He seemed just a bit too perfect,
But she thought she was worth it,
And maybe she's right.
Now he compares her to drinking,
It's better than thinking,
She's lost love for life.

She'd like to try it all again,
But it would taste the same

Like bad champagne.
Like bad champagne.

All he wants is confrontation,
Not affirmation,
Of how she feels.
he doesn't mean to abuse her,
But soon he'll lose her,
To the pain she concealed.

He'd like to try it all again,
But it would taste the same

Like bad champagne,
Like bad champagne,
Her crazy little bubbles intoxicate his brain,
Like bad champagne.

my morning

how do you deal with
post cinco de mayo??
The fuckin waffle house

Ashes drinkin her coffee..

Waffle house has their own salsa..

ashes waffle from hell
shes liked it.
i dont like waffles from there
only the kind you put in the toaster

My food..
something with chicken bacon and cheese
i should of got some ranch..

me eating my something
with chicken bacon and cheese

This is our server .. T..

It was lovely..

still looking forward to something.. this could make my year..

what cha think?

went to the...

chimaira and arch enemy show last nite.. fell in love twice..


I have told you things neeed to change
You never listened or came to my aid
The vicious cycle has not changed
My time's spent rearranged

Motherfuck it all
I can't stand this
Remember when I said
Everyone makes me sick
Well nothing has changed

I hate everyone

This vicious cycle still remains
Constant clusterfuck, bloodstains
Ignorance, you kill for God
Expression not allowed

You fucked it up
With your motherfucking games
Remember when I said
I was so ashamed
Well nothing has changed

You have to
Pick and choose your fights
You have to
Come out alive

I have told you things neeed to change
You never listened or came to my aid
The vicious cycle has not changed
My judgment fades away

You'll never change me
Remember we are through
I am staying here
To betray all of you
And nothing will change

you know whats hot?????

Duct Tape over the mouth

It's not that I don't like screams
I like muffled screams

whats new..

ive been thinkin alot..

its crazy i know.. been bery emotionally dependant lately.. since the 22nd life has been hard on me.. i mean.. where was everyone at.. the people who promised they would be there for me that day.. where the fuck were you.. but oh when you need something who is the first person you call.. eryn can i crash at your place.. eryn.. i need a favor.. im not your fuckin 711.. what the hell is wrong with you people.. i try to be a friend. i really do..i try really hard.. but you dont fuckin have the time unless it convient for you.. when i need something where the fuck are you.. oh im with brad.. oh jen.. oh jonathan.. oh shay.. oh sam.. but then the world doesnt go your way and you come screaming to me like im gonna fix it for you.. ive always tried to be the good friend.. but thats over now.. im only gonna try if you do.. i hate standing in a room full of people and feeling completely alone..

this is lame i know but its the best way to describe how i feel .. well not really
i need your arms around me, i need to feel your touch
i need your understanding, i need your love so much
you tell me that you love me so, you tell me that you care
but when i need you baby, you're never there


on the phone long, long distance
always through such strong resistance
first you say you're too busy
i wonder if you even miss me


never there
you're never there
you're never, ever, ever, ever there


a golden bird that flies away, a candle's fickle flame
to think i held you yesterday, your love was just a game
a golden bird that flies away, a candle's fickle flame
to think i held you yesterday, your love was just a game

you tell me that you love me so, you tell me that you care
but when i need you baby
take the time to get to know me
if you want me why can't you just show me
we're always on this roller coaster
if you want me why can't you get closer?


never there
you're never there
you're never ever ever ever there