i doubt you noticed i wasnt there..

so i havent been around lately..

my bad..

dont mean not to be.. but i wasnt..

oh well.. cant change the past..

first some pictures.. then my endless rambling..

on my way to charles' house



trying to put in his new radio



on our way to curcuit city so they can put in the radio.. hahaha



i love this picture



he'a a boy ya know?



so thats why he was laying on the floor shaking..



i liked it..



when did fanny packs come back??



and how we end a nite..









So life has been ok i guess.. i made a new friends.. hes pretty awesome..



Lost some others.. when angry alot..
been sick..
needed someone to talk to..
got to talk to vince which helped alot..
i had some stuff inside i had let build up..
and finally it came out in a flood..
hes awesome..
i want to paint.. but cant find anything inside to let out
it will happen i hope..
i dunno life is interesting lately..
new pics of my new tattoos friday!!!
love ya mean it..

nickles and dimes.. yours and mine.. did you cash in on your dreams..

Randomly placed song lyric
random pictures of austin




mr. Ru


random pics of me

i am wearing my new dress tonite..

anger makes you cold.. but life. it makes you weak..

he seemed just a bit too perfect.. she thought she was worth it.. maybe hes right .. now he compells her to drinkin.. its better then thinkin she's lost love for life.. she'd like to try it all again but would it taste the same.. like bad champagne


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lets do something that doesnt require talking.. just sit and stare.. drink.. smoke.. sit.. if talking arises.. lets make it short and sweet.. remind me why i think so highly of you and love you endlessly.
i guess..
attention isnt the same when it isnt from you..
maybe im being selfish..
but i need you..
i dont like not being around you for this long..
im sorry

and i will not be broken..

teddy .. im glad you found this blog... and im sorry you feel like all the sudden we should talk about what happened and how we feel.. well darling ill tell you how i feel. i fuckin hate you and if i never talk to you again a day in my life it will be too soon.. our relationship was nothing.. it was one sided... all you wanted was to get out of your mommy and daddy's house.. and i helped you do that.. but now look at you.. you gotta be some baby's daddy she doesnt even know who the fuckin father is.. and is she working.. pssh no.. welcome to the parent life.. ass hole.. you deserve how fucked up your life is. and i dont really care if this makes me a bitch.. i could care less if my choices make you think of less of me. ive thought less of you since i left that day.. your just a sad little man.. and you have to strike out at me because your unhappy well guess what mother fucker.. im not unhappy and i wont let you make me unhappy.. go to hell.. really quick.. dont call my phone.. cause like the last 50 times you've called it. im not answering.. your change of heart does not effect me.. and cold feet my ass.. cold feet doesnt last 7 months and have you living with some other chick. im glad we didnt get married.. and im glad ive realized what kind of person you were. my friends were right..
and one last thing.. it will be a cold day in hell before you get that ring back.. i talked to a lawyer about it.. and engagement rings are considered gifts.. and no case you present in court would get it back for you.. but if you did want to go to court i have a good case of getting money for the el camino.. the volvo.. and my last pay check so you make that your decision.. c-ya asshole..